GEEZ...to fast to catch my breath....

Just spinning...spinning...make it stop...
I'm thinking..."Maybe I'm trying to have it all! Maybe its time to accept what you have going on for you (which is not what you planned for BTW)..."And so many other thoughts in that line. Is this right?? Hmph...

This period in my life is just...gosh! There's no word to explain it but I know I think I cn try to swing an explanation. Kinda like when u take a new fruit for the first time; the tingly sensations that may give a sudden outburst oF goosebumps,and some little nervy itches in ur body that scream out the uncertainty of sweetness! Sometimes the fruit turns out sweet and then u are happy. But what happens when its bitter and u have to spit it out?? Hmph...

Responsibility, I have learnt is not just given to u before it cn make sense. One may misuse the opportunity and then the trust u may have gained from time to time may zap...just like that!

This is me learning how to deal with some major situations; ones that would prepare me for the future, not so pretty now but it must end well. But the question still remains, "am I expecting too much by expecting to be @ a particular level and is being given a level that doesn't correlate? Is it thinking medicre to settle for what u have now and hope that the 'big one' will eventually come and salvage the situation?

May not be so tasty, but I'm chewing on it. I would love u to CHEW ON THIS...God bless u!